
I am itching to paint again. But I
should really clean today. I have lost a spiral notebook with measurements for curtains I am sewing for someone. I should really finish up that project, and would, if I could find that silly notebook.
Why can't I find it? Buried treasure. It is somewhere around here.
Shoulds vs. Desires...
I think I want a clean house. I should want an organized, clean house. Maybe it is my definition of "clean" that I need to re-think.
I don't want to be frustrated when I am looking for something specific and I can't find it. I want to be more organized. I want to be able to walk into rooms, and not steer through deep piles threatening to collapse. I want company to feel comfortable.
I was impressed last Sunday by a comment from one of the sisters at Church about how to simplify my life: de-clutter. How freeing and un-complicated it feels afterwards. Not really during. It's painful, dealing with all those delayed decisions.
That is what my piles are. Am I going to do this thing, or not?
1. I have my must save-I-love-this pile.
2. Garbage pile.
3. Someone-else-will-love-it more pile.
But making these piles is messy! Cleaning is messy! I expose all my projects, the things I want to do/try. I have been in a gathering-stage for years.
John told me this morning about a show, "
Raising Hope" and the joke about the mom's shed. Hoarding-style. We probably all have a little bit of that in us, the saving-just-in-case collection.
(And don't we encourage this, as Mormons? Food-storage? Domestic goddesses?)
I used to feel sorry for quilters who had one bookcase of fabric, and that was it. Most quilters I know have closets and bins and creeping stashes throughout the house. It would be nice to have it all in one place, all the colors organized in your sewing studio. Access to all of it, all the time.
I know I need to see storage or I forget about it.
So today is a day of unearthing treasures, remembering goals, and deciding if I am still going to make that beautiful creation, or give it/dump it.